2012 and 2013.

         Woah, there were none of those apocalyptic events happening last year in 2012. Shame. Oh well, it's almost August 2000 and THIRTEEN. Damn. In fact, I'm already here in Malaysia. I'm done with my studies in Auckland, New Zealand. Here I am, enjoying the Ramadhan Bazaar and acclimatising with the hot and humid weather yet again.

        2012 was the year I decided that I want to settle on my personal beliefs. From being a person in the middle, I went hardcore left-wing liberal. Drugs decriminalisation and legalisation? Hurm, let's start with soft drugs like marijuana first. Euthanasia? Sure. Abortion? Up to the individuals  involved. Gay marriage? Hey if people really want to be miserable just like how the straights did it, why not? LGBT equality? It's human right. Religion? Should be relegated to the personal space.Secularism? The way to go. God? Might exist, might not exist.

Most of these are actually what I always believed anyway , it's just something that I don't expressly tell outright with regards to the idea of being in the 'middle'. Now since being the middle's went down the drain...

       I survived 2012 and  2013 with relatively good academic results. If only I weren't so lazy during my first year at uni. I had taken up interesting courses like French language, Education and Social Justice, Research Methods in Education and I finally found my interest and what I plan to be my career path. It's an achingly slow and starving career path , but something's about seeing myself with those kinds of experiences, credentials and networking made me felt happy. That I matter.

       Of friendships, I burned some bridges, I built some new ones. Of relationships, I still suck at it and frankly, when I visited Ipoh my hometown and met my makciks and pakciks, bombarded with questions of ' Bila nak kahwin , Along? ' and ' Dah jumpa calon?" , I was in fact very comfortable and quick to say , to my conservative makciks' surprises : " I don't like the idea of marriage and I don't want to settle down. Also, I don't like kids. They're expensive". Of reading, i missed reading books by Malay authors but it is very convenient reading using my iPad. Of religion, huh. Of vices, I started smoking January 2012 due to some stress and issues which I would not explain here. Stopped smoking from December 2012 to February 2013 then started smoking again. Since February 2012 up until last June this year, I had to meet my doctor and counsellor at Uni Health Centre every month anyway. Thank you MARA for paying my student fees - Thank you Vero, my uni student insurance that enabled me to go to these appointments.

        My friends kept telling me that I need to slow down on my 'liberal thinking' because I am going
to work in MRSM, a conservative environment where sentiments about preserving the rights of the Malays and Muslims are dominant. I'll think about it. Hey I survived a Sekolah Menengah Agama, I hope I still remember how to keep my head low.

        Blogspot sounds so 2008, actually. Now it's all Tumblr this Tumblr that - or Vine ? I dunno.Facebook is so 2010. I had made an Instagram account, but my life is so uninteresting , unlike some of my peers out there. Twitter is only used by me to vent in 140? characters or follow the stories about the Hollywood celebrities and world news. I am not pro-Mursi, I reject Islamism and political Islam and I support the protests against Mursi, but at this point, the military has sabotaged the people's revolution.

        Ah, this post is such a random, messy Luahan Rasa Untaian Kata. The Untaian may even be berbelit-belit now.