At this moment, I know very little about the reality of teaching in itself . Sure, I think I'm pretty covered with regards to the theories behind learning and teaching, and from practicum during summer school 2010 and practicum in Onehunga High School, Auckland I've learnt somewhat on the learning environment , behaviour management and teaching obstacles, but all in all, I cannot say that I am prepared to teach.
Many people think of teaching as a noble profession, but at the same time regard it as a mediocre, low status, high-stress but low-paying job. A teacher is someone who cannot do anything more." Those who can, do. Those who can't, teach." , as the saying goes. Even future teachers think of it as this. Tipulah if I said that I don't ever hold that perception before.
" Why struggle hard with my study if I will only ever be a teacher in the end? "
I am not going to provide any statements to support or rebuke that kind of opinion. People are free to believe in whatever they want. If they're satisfied with that kind of beliefs, fine. Also, not everyone got the chance to love what they are doing in life. Even millionaires may be depressed eventhough they are surrounded by life pleasures, and even the pious will sometimes question their deities for the things they have to face in life.
What I've learnt throughout my darkest days was that I cannot please everyone. Even in the battle between good and evil anyway, one cannot please God and the Devil at the same time. For me, I turned selfish as far as I can and I settle for half. Some people strived to please their Gods as much as they can and it's their choice. Some people strived to please their families and friends and it's their choice. Some people strived for themselves alone and it's their choice. I am of the last group.
My passion is social science. Education is part of social science. In my world of MRSM and college/uni friends whom most of them are STEM students, I stand out a bit from being different ( just a bit though).And of choosing this rarely chosen path. Robert Frost , baby. What can I say? I may regret this choice ( I think I would ) but that's life. There are many things I don't like about my life , about myself, about my own previous life choices , but I came to a point where there would be no regrets in the grand scheme of things. I never think of it as what God has decided for me - it's been a while since I have an ambivalent relationship with that dude anyway and I'm not going to pretend that he mattered. If I don't matter to God, or to anyone else in the world, I matter to at least myself.
Is it solipsitic in here, or is it just me?
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