Being an Adult

What does it mean?

Does that mean I can only post Islamic-related stuff in my Facebook, abandoning my interest in books, anime and general entertainment?

Does it mean I have to quickly find a sexually grown homo sapiens who have vagina and make babies with her?

Does it mean that I should stop reading teenage-oriented novels?

Bah.

Who cares? There are adults who act like a child, and there are teenagers that are mature beyond their age, only lacking in experience. There are plenty of sociological studies even on the broadening nature of 'youth' these day, especially in modern societies believing in Maslowe's Hierarchy of Needs.

This "being an adult" does not need sacrifice. It's just natural growth on life perspectives and acknowledging roles in society. Which means accepting AND rejecting socially-defined roles.

Individualism, babe.

Good people

I am surrounded by good people. 

I do not deserve it but I am thankful. To them. 

So far though,I pretty much disappoint them with my refusal to be what I am expected to be, but life's like that. C'est la vie. 

Whichever God who sent them to me, then I am thankful to you. Yes, Universe, you too if you want to. I never really understand the appeal of pantheism, but I guess I'll allow it this time.

Reasons

I am a heavy smoker. A really heavy smoker by my friend's standard. A pack a day, no biggie. 

And I've received countless advice from my peers to stop smoking. 

I don't smoke for cool. It's not cool at all. 

I smoke for my daily sanity. 

The thing is...

"The loneliest people can be the kindest. The saddest people sometimes smile the brightest. The most damaged people are filled with wisdom. All because they do not wish the pain they've endured on another soul."

Decisions.

A number of decisions that I'll make in the far future will alienate 99% of my current friends, burn so many bridges and destroy so many good memories. 

Ah, I'll be waiting for its arrival patiently. 

To alienation, fire and destruction.