My Ambition. Real ambition.

Oh yeah I like to lie a lot. Depending on the situation, I'll say that I want to be a teacher, a lecturer, an academician, a journalist, pegawai MARA, pengerusi MARA (hahahaha)...

Truth is revealed.

Sadly I have no ambition- a definite one, I can say. For now.

Obviously you guys don't take it seriously right, the Pengerusi/ Ketua Pengarah MARA thingy. Who likes administration anyway? And the fact that since my political view is rather problematic  to the "supposed ideology" of the MARA agency, you think I could climb the social ladder?

Obviously no haha.

I love teaching. Not because I love to teach.But I love knowledge. And I love sharing knowledge. I love to tell, not so much of teaching.

It was a quick thinking actually. You know why I took TESL in KMS ? It is actually because when I browsed the KMS website , I saw there: Sociology, Maths, Literature in English.

Sociology sounds fun!I wonder what it is. Guess I can myself a try~rather than some boring law stuff. Sure I love reading about enacments and policies and so forth, but come on, a lawyer? My dad never hide his displeasure of knowing that for UPU, I applied law UIA and UiTM.

" hampir semua lawyer jahat." Woo, that's harsh . Haha.

So it is never " I take TESL because it offer a widerange of careers" bla bla bla. Obviously I won't tell that I take TESL because the term sociology sound so cool haha.

So TESL it is.

All my MRSM classmates know that I want to be a teacher. Yes, I do want to be one- but for a time then I'll quit. I was influenced by this saying, you see :

" bukan semua pensyarah boleh jadi guru yang baik, tetapi kebanyakan guru yang baik boleh jadi pensyarah yang hebat."

saya tak tahu betul ke tidak kata-kata ini sekarang, tetapi zaman kecik-kecik dulu kan, saya pegang betul-betul kata-kata ini.

sebab itulah bila cikgu tanya siapa nak jadi pensyarah , saya tak angkat tangan. ramai angkat tangan , tapi saya tak. bila cikgu tgk saya tak angkat untuk "doktor", "engineer", "pensyarah", saya akan senyum poyo dan cakap, "saya nak jadi cikgu".

Yup, a teacher. Saya nak menggali selama 5 tahun kontrak dengan MARA ini ( inshaAllah, kalau saya xkena buang kerja la sebab gaduh dengan pentadbiran banyak sangat dan kena bayar setengah juta) apa yang menjadikan seorang guru itu guru yang hebat.

Teknik pengajarankah?
Kasih sayangkah?
Profesionalismekah?
Anak muridkah?
Pentadbiran sekolahkah?

Then, atfer mencuri ilmu ini , saya akan meninggalkan sistem MRSM. ya betul . ini memang hakikat. saya memang  tak mahu bekerja di bawah MARA selepas 5 tahun. I had someplace else in mind.

tapi ia boleh berubah la, only God knows.

Kan Tuhan itu bekerja dalam kerahsiaan?

Saya mahu mati dalam bekerja. Itulah yang saya mahu. Saya mahu mati dengan pengetahuan bahawa saya telah cuba membaiki dunia dan isinya, meski hanya seorang dua sebenarnya yang saya berjaya.

Saya mahu buktikan yang saya, cucu seorang penjual nasi lemak, nelayan tua, penoreh getah- anak orang Melayu kebanyakan- boleh jadi ilmuwan- meski bukan jutawan.

Dan saya tahu Tuhan tahu. Saya tahu Tuhan tahu.

Saya tahu Tuhan itu, namanya apa pun la ( saya panggil dia Allah) tahu.

Luahan Rasa.

A lesson learned, the hard , painful way.

A guilt that can never begone.

A split of a second of distrust on humanity, and that is enough, more than enough actually.

Let's just say that I want to be alone- of all things first.

And let the Heavenly Lord residing in heaven deal His judgement on me first before dealing with sons of men.

Nietzsche and Religions

" God is dead, and we have killed him". I cannot agree more. The idea of a God as dictated by religious scholars had corrupted the very essence of godliness: beyond mystery. God in religions have become so technical, so mechanical that I see no difference between the deity and a machine afterall;and these religions are the machine's salesmen. Leave God alone.

I'm Melancholy

Two weeks in this MRSM. Almost two weeks of meeting these great experienced mentors, naughty brats and angels of my students which their bright futures are waiting for them anxiously, and the fact that most, if not all I perhaps will never meet again, and we may forget each other faces after some time. Two weeks, two magnificent  weeks. So that made me feel a lil bit melancholic ( while listening to Tokio Hotel, Alphabeat, Cobra Starship and Lady Gaga).

 Oh well.

Writing

When I feel happy, I write. When I feel sad, I write. When I feel like the world is unfair , I write. When I feel that a blessing is bestowed upon me, I write. When I feel devastated and lonely, I write. When all the world somehow seem distant and what is left is the evil feelings of hope, I write. When I was in joy, I write. When I was 'him', I write. When I feel so much blessed with thoughtful friends, I write. When I speak of God in vain, I write.So much to write,but so little time. If writing is not my soul, I don't know what is.

Shida

To Ms Nurul Shida Zulkifli of PMC,my best friend, nak bagitau ni, aku predeparture 11hb February dan maybe fly 13hb February ni. Rasanya tak sama dengan budak OZ. Sori ar kredit aku abeh so xleh reply ko punya mesej tadi. Huhu. Salam~-wankhai-

"Good morning Sir Khairul"

lama tidak menulis ( tipu. saya hari-hari menaip data untuk assignments dan buat lesson plan .)

tadi saya mengajar dalam kelas Tingkatan 505. Alhamdulillah. dalam 16 orang pelajar B.Education (TESOL) kumpulan kami saya yang pertama Lisa Whittle, my lecturer observed.

it was great. we have this activity where students listened to songs and commented on them .later, Lisa commented on my strengths etc, based on her observation . occasionally, she recommends a better alternative way of teaching. truly inspiring. sebab harini saya mengajar secara formal, maka saya jadi "sir" , tapi habis-habis kelas saya sembang-sembang dengan budak-budak saya dipanggil 'abang' saja.

it is great i think, all this summer school. saya dah selesa memanggil cikgu-cikgu dengan gelaran kakak sahaja. cikgu-cikgu lelaki pun saya panggil nama sahaja. saya jadi imam solat di surau, melepak-lepak dengan pelajar di depan astaka padang bola ragbi,berbual mesra dengan cikgu-cikgu muda yang sebaya ( 24 tahun dikira sebaya la kiranya), belajar pasal hierarki organisasi guru, dan terdedah dengan sukatan pelajaran BI di MRSM segalanya. semalam pun, saya berjalan-jalan di kelas-kelas f5 dan ditegur oleh students.

" Hi sir!"
" Hi abang!"
"Assalamualaikum bang" . saya cuma dengar "kumbang".
" semekom sir".

dan saya melihat the other side of teachers and teaching. teachers are now human. you know what i mean. they have fun, they sembang-sembang artis dengan kami, menyanyi lagu-lagu korea, ajak gi karaoke ( erk?), makan-makan kat luar, main boling, sembang pasal movie yang baru keluar kat Jitra Mall.

dan mentors kami are beyond supportive. truly grateful of them. they are like kakak , helping in everything and so forth. lisa whittle juga is really encouraging us- her ideas, comments and so forth.

I like these words of her- buat saya rasa seronok satu hari ini,

" Wan K, you have this natural confidence in being on front of the class."

Thank you, Lisa~

saya ada lagi 5 minit sebelum saya punch out kerja hari ini ( tapi pukul 2 nanti ada session with Lisa). nak kemas-kemas meja . tadi students datang usha-usha semacam meja saya yang semak macam apa. these nonmuslim students are friendly. i like. the muslim students are respectful so far, alhamdulillah.

till then.

salam.

( menggunakan internet dan laptop Nihlah Abdull Halim. Celcom Broadband saya tragik, tragik sangat)

Menjadi Guru.

These two weeks I've realized few things from this practicum I had. TEACHING is not easy. It is stressful, as we deal with learners and their future. TEACHERS are always thinking of choices and how it will affect the learners. TEACHER is as noble as actuarists,doctors and engineers etc, if not more. TEACHING KIDS requires maturity and patience,and God, do help me on that.

Secrets

It was from a conversation today with a long time friend that I realized that I've been wrong all this time.

I said before that I don't believe in friendship. I was wrong, somehow.

My friend, X said that I was in denial. He said that I indeed believe in friendship. " The way you treat people -you truly believe in the relationship that we all had." I was quite shocked.

In the end, one can never fools himself.

"Macam mana you say that you didn't believe in friendship. The way you treat your friends and so forth?"

" Come on Wan. Don't act cool. You know you believe in one."

I was dumbfounded. Even now I'm feeling dizzy and puzzled of all these. It is always like that whenever people is telling me about myself. Me in the eyes of other people.

" Tapi Wan, you have this  problem. You don't rely on friendship."

Erm?

" You never really allow people to understand you much. You're the only ones doing the contributing in friendship as if you never believe that other people can be nice and considerate . I found that unfair. It's like you don't respect your friends.You don't give ways to them to be nice to you.  "

God how he needs to know it is NOT like that, AT ALL.

" You're a terrible liar. People knows that you're making things up. Stop saying things as if you really mean what you're saying. People close to you knows that, at least. "

Ouch, that hits the target. Hard.

It's not true. Most things in my life was told to the people around me . How I am a pessimist, how my family is, how I got myself in the path of being an English teacher, how I am sceptical towards religion...it is all there to those who wants to know. I know I'm being defensive here but if that's what people are thinking about me, what can I say....

People have secrets . Secrets that even death can't open the seal of these God-protected secrets. 

Individualism.

Dear diary,

I have the idea that I must somehow be what people expect me to be in one kind of a situation.


My idea of enjoying myself most is to be alone. Friends are great, but I like being alone in the sense that I will walk my own pace, I know my target and I am not bothered about some insignificant things in the journey. But life is not about enjoy alone, yup, and I know my status of a social species.

But deep alone, I need to accomplish something. 

I know my faith level in many things aren't that good either. My faith in God is almost minimal and my idea of harmony is tragic. My idea of 'heaven' is  acceptance. Yet, I always has this idea that let me suffer that, but please, not my friends, my families, and all the people I've known in my life. In my best way I try to answer as 'right' as possible on the questions I was asked about. The suffering is mine to bear, but let them found their answers- all the verses and the logic and the moral- let them be faithful to the One who deserves Faith in-though in reality I don't really believe in what I'm saying.

However...

The idea of evil intrigues me. What is evil actually? The manifestation of Satanic thought? Why is it so feared and frowned when it is certain that somehow the Kingdom of God will later be made manifest, surely? Are the sins so influential that the Holy Lovers even were thrown from the Garden, and the Son of God sacrificed himself for humanity, or some Prophet from the Line of Ishmael will say that his only ascension to the Prophethood is to instil back morality in the people.

I must seek this evil. The sages and the saints went to the light and they found the light. But often than not, they can never return to the people again. Their thoughts were  filled with light that they can never think as a mortal 'human' again. They are made immortal by the God(s) they believe in, and the very soul that they had are either crushed and melt in communion with the Truth.

I won't be that, for Evil is more temptating than the Truth.

Evil defies the Light and sought rebellion to the Kingdom. The Darkness are made manifest in each soul that even some saints themselves drown in false ecstasy and made unbeknownst to the opposite path they're going.

The Evil dares to defy the Truth, knowing its consequences. And so am I, the human that is foolish enough to do so. I seek of the understanding of Evil.Evil in its purest form. Evil that need not of sins and nastiness, who doesn't require bloodshed and treachery, an Evil that exists for the sake of being evil.

In this, I need a teacher. A teacher evil enough to believe that darkness comes to those who are willing to live upon its greatness without actually needing some teacher to help him do so. In this, I need all the God(s) to show me! Show me that you God(s) aren't afraid of me a human who are trying to defy you. This journey is a beginning.

Goodnight diary.

This post is a boring attempt to write something fictitious without having any desire to continue doing it. Life is boring, for now. Huhu.

Presentation , Chuak.

Time: 0900 hrs (GST+ 8)
Date: 13 January 2010
Title of Presentation: Classroom Management and School Experience- Teacher's Role In Class

A brief presentation and interpretation of the observation made by the teacher traineea in an English  class taught by an experienced teacher. Each trainees are to observe different matters relevant to the context of "teaching language"  and to explain it in 10-15 minutes regarding each given topics in a teacher's perspective.

The presentation of data observed is highly sought and expected .

This presentation will be evaluated by Mr John Tomlins, tutor from the University of Auckland and Ms Lisa Whittle from Victoria University of Wellington.

All the best. 

Tempus Fugit.

Eli, eli, lama sabachtani?

Membakar.

Membakar gereja , rumah ibadat orang Kristian bukan Jihad.
Ia satu perbuatan yang seluuhnya bertentangan dengan suruhan Allah yang jelas termaktub dalam Hadis Rasulullah.
( Dan betapa perbuatan ini menyerupai apa yang dilakukan oleh sesetengah pemimpin Kerajaan Mughal India dan Turki Uthmaniyahdahulunya , which is not what we are proud, at all.)

Dalam surah al-An'am ayat 108:

Dan janganlah kamu cerca benda-benda yang mereka sembah yang lain dari Allah, kerana mereka kelak akan mencerca Allah secara melampaui batas sedang mereka tidak menyedarinya.

Kalau Muslim cerca tuhan orang lain pun tak boleh, atas rasional bahawa umat bukan Islam akan menghina Allah lebih teruk daripada itu, apatah lagi membakar rumah ibadat mereka?

Aiya.

I believe that God speaks in many languages. I don't even care on whether God has 99 or infinite names. 

The Polemic of The Deity ( Allah, Jesus, Yahweh, El...)

Dalam isu penggunaan nama Allah ini, ingin saya ingatkan bahawa Kementerian Dalam Negeri lah yang mencari pasal dengan mengharamkan penggunaan kalimah Allah dalam agama-agama selain Islam di Malaysia. Sebelum merdeka lagi, di mana tanah Melayu dan Indonesia dilaht sebagai satu entiti yang dipanggil Kepulauan Nusantara, Bible dalam Bahasa Indonesia sudahpun wujud, dan Allah telahpun dipakai sedari itu. Jadi tidak ada isu berbangkit yang sepatutnya berlaku. Hanya apabila pada 2007 apabila KDN menguatkuasakan undang-undang ini yang mengakibatkan timbulnya tindakan undang-undang daripada Gereja Katolik Malaysia yang mempunyai banyak pengikut di Sabah dan Sarawak.

Namun begitu saya tidak akan menyalahkan KDN secara semberono. Negara Malaysia memang agak terlindung dalam isu ini. Sudah lama rakyat Malaysia memandang "rendah" akan masyarakat Indonesia yang bebas bertukar agama dari Islam ke agama lain, berkahwin campur sesama bukan Islam, masyarakat yang terlalu liberal dan bebas, kewujudan rumah ibadat untuk semua agama, jadi apa-apa hujah golongan bukan Islam berkenaan Indonesia dibandingkan dengan Malaysia merupakan satu tindakan tidak bijak.

Rakyat Malaysia dan Indonesia mungkin berkongsi bahasa,  rumpun yang sama dan budaya juga tidak banyak berbeza, tetapi kekuatan Indonesia dan Malaysia berbeza-beza. Indonesia mungkin sahaja punya umat Islam terbanyak di dunia, tetapi dari segi Perlembagaannya tidaklah umat Islam di sana lebih istimewa daripada rakyat Indonesia yang lain. Di Malaysia, Islam ialah "agama Persekutuan", maknanya kalau Malaysia itu ialah seoorang individu, maka dia ialah seorang Muslim. Banyak juga fasal-fasal yang menyentuh berkenaan Islam yang menonjolkan bahawa agama ini sentral dalam pendirian negara Malaysia ketika itu dan masih relevan kini. Sebilangan khuatir dengan proses liberalisasi yang berlaku di Malaysia, dengan peningkatan gejala sosial dan sebagainya, namun dalam perspektif lain, masyarakat Islam di Malaysia tampak lebih konservatif daripada dulu.

Ia mungkin hasil kempen politik antara UMNO dan PAS selama 12 penggal ini yang cuba menjadi "jaguh rakyat" dalam isu Islam- meski dengan pendekatan berbeza. UMNO agak berat dengan isu hudud dan pelaksanaan hukum undang-undang shariah tetapi sangat proaktif dalam isu kewangan Islam, manakala PAS lebih banyak berpandukan kepada struktur khalifah Islam yang amat tradionalis yang dilihat sesetengah orang "mundur" dan "jumud". Apatah lagi konsep kepimpinan ulama yang dahulunya terkenal dalam PAS ( secara teorinya masih terkenal kini) memang mengambil semangat revolusi Islam Iran yang mewujudkan Republik Islam Iran ( yang menariknya, dilanda pelbagai masalah daripada rasuah ke korupsi).

Dalam isu Allah , sepertimana yang diperkatakan oleh Ustaz Zaharuddin Abdul Rahman ,

" Isu ini turut menjadi hangat khususnya apabila terdapat beberapa pandangan diberikan oleh kumpulan ilmuan. Kumpulan pertama yang tidak membenarkan dengan pelbagai hujjah dan nas, demikian juga kumpulan kedua. Secara asasnya, ini adalah isu cabang dalam bab aqidah yang tidak sama sekali menjatuhkan seseorang dalam kekafiran, perbezaaan pendapat dan ijtihad adalah dibenarkan dalam hal ini."

Mari kita beradab dalam berbeza pandangan.

God is Dead. God Remains Dead. And We Have Killed Him. - Nietzsche

In this case on the use of the term Allah by the Catholics, my stand is to retain on the status quo. If the Catholics really, truly want to use the term Allah , just do so in the Mass or any rituals. But please don't involve publications. In publications, can Catholics churches guarantee their circulation among Catholics only? This therefore will and can uphold Article 11 of Federal Constitution that proselyzing Muslim / berdakwah kepada Muslim is not allowed. Or, if they can guarantee that the articles are circulated within their own communities only, would the church ready for the consequences if it was to be found that the articles are spread and circulated throughout  the whole Malaysia regardless of people's religion? Dare the church ready to accept such absolute banning later on- which is clear in Article 11 of the Federal Constitution?

I actually don't think that the Sarawakian and Sabahan won't totally misunderstand the articles in Malay section The Herald if Tuhan was used. I believe that even  by using Tuhan, the idea that a Tuhan is a Father , a Son , and Ruhul Qudus as a similar entity in a Godhead will still be comprehensible and understandable.

Racial sensitivity is perhaps, I repeat, perhaps, can be made debatable. A Muslim can desert their race if they are made to choose between Muslim and Malay ( which theoretically is impossible in Malaysia context of law). But, religious sensitivity in Malaysia is very much relevant.

The worst of such example that happened in Malaya was Natrah case in Singapore- and so, if want to be made a comparison then, what Malays face and what the Arabs and European Muslims ( Bosnians etc) face was like so trivial. They have wars and continuous death, while Muslims in Malaysia are fighting over sukuk and zakat and some cutting hands. So, better, in this case, we stick to the status quo. For now, until we are ready. Please, do not assume that the Malays are ready. You know that it is so wrong in many ways.

Ulama' boleh berbeza pandangan dalam isu penggunaan nama Allah. Bersetuju atau tidak bersetuju tidak akan membawa kepada kekafiran kerana ia bukan perkara pokok, kerana hukum dan kondisi budaya adalah berbeza berbeza. Kerana itulah, rata-rata ulama Arab tidak kisah manakala Majlis Fatwa Kebangsaan pada 2008 tidak membenarkan. Nik Aziz sendiri setuju Allah digunakan dalam agama lain, tetapi dalam penerbitan terbitan segala beliau juga agak khuatir.Ini juga pandangan PAS selaku kumpulan Islam dalam Pakatan Rakyat- pembangkang dalam Malaysia- yang mengesyorkan undang-undang supaya penggunaan terma Allah dibolehkan tetapi harus diawasi dengan kawalan.


But all in all, hukum and siasah shariah aside, I always believe that God speaks in many languages anyway.For Rumi himself has said , he doesn't found God in mosques, in churches, in synanogues, in pagodas or shrines, nor within the discussion of the intelectuals or the mystics ; God dwells in the hearts of the believers. One can fight in a jihad or a crusade but deep inside, he may not really believe in the Lord.

And such was the polemic  that God is made "exclusively belonging" to the human that had created havoc in churches, in mosques, and in the world with its so many wars.It is as if the nature of God is subject to human ideas.  Maybe such tiredness of infighting and wars that he has seen that made Friedrich Nietzsche, one intellectual which I have great respect on to proclaim:

"God is dead. God remains dead. And we have killed him."

Facebook and Me.

I am a freak. While most of my friends posted up their pictures doing some travelling or some cheesy quotes, I posted up some serious, boring facts or commentary or rather posting up links to news portal.

I am truly a freak. Below is what I sent for the past week. What I posted as my facebook status could actually be a blog post in itself.

Wan Khairul Nizam Sentences Wankhai needs to learn for upcoming 2010 : " I'm socially allergic to vegetables", " I'm fine, thank you, and so back off", " I hate you ( said directly to the people's face) ", and " your opinion is fine, but I will never simply acquiesce to you in matters I believe in, and so must you as well".
December 27, 2009 at 9:05pm
  
Wan Khairul Nizam Life is not all about happiness. Life is not all about sadness either. There is so much to life that we require both the feelings of happiness and sorrow, so that at the end of this journey, with the help of God ( Allah, Yahweh, Buddha, Jesus = pick whatever you like or remain agnostic), we'll end it alive and fulfilled. Now let's laugh, and cry.
December 27, 2009 at 11:13pm
  
Wan Khairul Nizam It is often that in the midst of a bustling town, with people around busy with their jobs, their life, that one walking among them may feel the ultimate depredating form of loneliness. 

Wan Khairul Nizam Demandez, et l'on vous donnera; cherchez, et vous trouverez; frappez, et l'on vous ouvrira.
December 28, 2009 at 11:55am
  
Wan Khairul Nizam "He looked like a normal guy," he said. "It was just hard to believe that he was actually going to, trying to blow up this plane.". Nigerian bomber. Christmas. It used to be people with scars, long beard and scary eyes that will be perceived 'terrorist potential'. Welcome to the next level, all normal people have now ...the potency of being terrorist. bravado.
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Wan Khairul Nizam " Penuh adabnya masuk merisik, Bicara pantun asas bualan, Mahar diberi tanda ikatan, Hati ini kasih berbisik, Pada Tuhan kita curahkan, Tiada kecewa tiada sesalan. "- Kepada rakan-rakan yang berkenaan. Pantun 6 kerat, btw. 

Wan Khairul Nizam "Tua muda bergandingan, Temasya rakyat bersuka ria , Adat budaya masih terjaga, Hati gembira berlapangan , Tempoh berehat jangan disia, Sesal dahulu masa berharga."- Nur Amanina , Dibah Rozlan, Satu Cahaya Kesenangan, Khairul Afif, Maya Irma, Intan Syafinaz etc. Huhuhu. Dan @wan khairul nizam jugak~





Wan Khairul Nizam "The wise sees knowledge and action as one; they see truly" - Bhagavad Gita
December 29, 2009 at 1:26pm
  
Wan Khairul Nizam Fundamentalism in Christianity and Islam is actually very different in principles. By such definition in accordance to Christianity for example, Islam will be throroughly fundamentalist in nature. And that will make a significantly large proportion of Muslims fall to the category of Western-defined " Muslim fundamental...ist". And such is not beneficial as it just heightens the paranoia among societies. 

Wan Khairul Nizam when you were lying on the green grass gazing the cloudless blue skies but you can't even contemplate on the marvels of natural beauty, and you found its silence is meaningless, and the buzz is also meaningless, then you need to realise that you should feel sorry for yourself. And such is my fate.
December 29, 2009 at 6:28pm ·
  
Wan Khairul Nizam Agama itu adalah nasihat. Kami berkata: Untuk siapa? Baginda bersabda: Untuk Allah, untuk kitabNya, untuk RasulNya, untuk para lmam kaum muslimin dan untuk umat lslam seluruhnya.-Hadis riwayat al-lmam Muslim. "Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment - John 7:24"... 

Wan Khairul Nizam Al-Fatihah buat bekas Presiden Indonesia Gus Dur/ Abdurrahman Wahid. Meski saya punya banyak ketidaksetujuan dengan pemikiran beliau, semoga Allah merahmati rohnya dan kita semua jua. Al-Fatihah. 

Wan Khairul Nizam Trivia: Tidak ada ketetapan dalam bilangan ayat Quran. Ulama' berbeza antara 6217, 6214, 6210,6224,6227 dan 6236 ( which is widely accepted in malaysia). 6666? a myth which is said narrated by Ibnu Abbas, which is actually no substantial evidence. so, makcik2 janganlah mintak duit hantaran RM6666 sebab konon ikut bilangan ayat Quran. mahar murah2 sederhana sudah k~~




Wan Khairul Nizam blessed be the sun,the stars, the moon, the mountains, the plains, the towers that reach the sky and the rocks that stays for million of years. blessed be the animals and the plants- for we are dependent on you. blessed be the rivers and the rains - for the life it brings. blessed be the parents, friends and enemies- f...or the joy they brought. In the blessings of God may we all dwell in.
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 Wan Khairul Nizam Allah ( Sabeans, Jews, Christians, Islam, Bahai, Sikhism ). Allah al-Ab ( Tuhan Bapa) . Allah al-Ibnu ( Tuhan Anak) . Allah Ruhul Qudus (Tuhan Ruhul Quddus). Elohim ( Tuhan= Judaism). El Shaddai ( Tuhan= Judaism) , El-Elyon ( Tuhan= Judaism). El ( nama Tuhan pagan ). Sharing is caring?


Wan Khairul Nizam Weird , a well-known ulama' in PAS once in a conference with PKR, DAP that I saw in Youtube said that "Allah" is not exclusive in Islam and so can be used by others. But solat Jumaat tadi at masjid PAS in Selayang, tok khatib berapi-rapi marah keputusan mahkamah tinggi ini dan salahkan Government sebab tak tegas. Bila ...Gov larang, ulama' korang tegur, bila mahkamah bagi, salahkan government. Apa ni? 

Wan Khairul Nizam Taliban. Taliban, what a disgrace you were to the religion. You kill Shias, even Pakistan civilians, in the name of God. What God it is that you worship then? I feel sad to have to pray for you last time when Afghanistan was attacked by America. It's like choosing the best of two evils...If I know, I wouldn't pray for any one. 

Wan Khairul Nizam Live and let live. Though I disagree on the basis of siasah syariyyah on the use of "Allah" by Christians in Malaysia, I won't ask for any 'Natrah incident' anyway. Let them worship their Allah, and Muslims ours. God bless all.After all, we have the nod from Majlis Ulama' PAS anyway, so we are mere followers. Mereka be...rijtihad, kita mengikut. If it's for universal good, not some politic play, I would support it. 

Wan Khairul Nizam hear no evil, speak no evil.

 Wan Khairul Nizam Sociology: Social Stratification: Poverty is subjective. Some statistically poor people may feel content with their simple lives they never consider themselves 'poor'. Some rich tycoons/millionares on the other hand may feel that they are still relatively poor compared to the astronomically rich billionares they know. ...The personal value of USD 3000 dollars are made different for each people.

 Freak.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A New Beginning.

2009  in theory was an unproductive year of mine. As KMS life ended, I found myself tied, chained to my house, practically done nothing except constant blogging and facebooking. I didn't  work at all. Totally a leech in the house.

I managed to visit few places here and then, meeting old friends, chatting with them, have a fight with one intimidating friend and I was the one who recite iqamah and azan to both of my little brother and sister when they come to this world.

I was still using this old, 2G phone without actually feel the urge to buy any new, 3G, state-of-the-art mobile phone. The idea of my money is strictly for food , magazines and petrol.

2009 however is the year I believe I read the most so far. I started my reading habit very late in my life. It was only after SPM ( yeah, that dreadfully after-SPM long holidays) that I started picking up books to fill my free time. I started my reading by reading Charmed okay? Kind of funny, considering the fact that in 2008- 2009, my idea of reading materials are then pure literature by renowned Malay or English authors and recently, classical and philosophical books. I am trying very hard now to finish reading Tractatus-Logico-Philosophicus by Wittgenstein and Thus Spoke Zarathrustra by Nietzsche.

So 2009 was a productive year or not? I am not sure.

But I really had fun sending some of my friends on their flight departures in KLIA, and chatting with some of them online.

The India medical students  , my roommate Juju, my best friend Shida, some of my A-Level friends, the Actuary people...so far I still somehow being in touch with them. But I realized that although Facebook, YM and Skype existed, maybe later in life. I wouldn't be that close with them anymore, as in the case of my previous MRSM friends. And so I am being realistic and cherish the time when we're still connected before we all will be extremely busy in our lives.

I am packing for Summer School for my degree B.Education (TESOL)  now. A new beginning.

p/s: Ahmad Khairul Anwar's shoes got damaged...huhu.