Religions and Their Dark Side

You see, I am not a defender of religions. I'm not a religion apologists who will retaliate when people says that religion is the cause of bloodshed throughout the human civilization.Or "God" is the causes of human destruction and suffering. Or "religions" causes war.

To a certain extent, the sayings are true. To a certain extent.

And when I talk about religions, undeniably I am putting Islam, my own faith  in the category as well.Sad as it is, all religions, whenever they are attacked by people claiming that their religion advocates violence and discrimination, woo, they spring into defensive-obsessive mode.

Hindus, a long time ago, when the Westerners attack the caste system, them Hindus argue that it is a socially functional system that protects the harmonious society , and so, the Dalits status (untouchables)  are definitely not discrimination. Nowadays, most young Indians in India themselves find this defence absurd. Judaism was thought to discriminate non-Jews, especially with the word "gentiles" or "goyim" used to refer to non-Jews. Some unenlightened friends of me use this term to tell how evil "Yahudi" are, because goy refer to " anjing/ dog".  Or does it? Face the fact that "goy" simply means "nation" or "people from other countries". Check the Hebrew Bible. The early "surahs" (it is called "books") in Hebrew Bible refers Jews and non-Jews as " goy" themselves, and God promised Abraham that his descendents would create a "goy gadol".  However, indeed some Jews whenever they are angry with non-Jews, they would use a "goyim" remark in contempt. However, it is by any means not different than we Muslims say "kafir", which supposedly carries a neutral notion to using "kafir" as sign of disgust, or "kafir lahanat" , to make it worst.

Medieval Christianity have oppressed the rise of intellectuals during the Dark Ages and in fact it continues until the Renaissance era. Christian scientists who discover contradicting theories that may jeopardize the church's stand faced a terrible fate. Nicholas Copernicus , for example. Islam also has faced criticism for their seldom changing definition of "jihad". And these two religions are known for their crusade wars,one described as "holy war", and one described as "jihad fi sabilillah". Muslims sometimes define "jihad" as "defending the country and the faith", but history reveals that "jihad " also means this: war launched against other non-muslim s territories to expand the Muslim empire , so they can either get more money from the jizyah or ghanimah, or gain more believers". From that, Islam sound bad because it launches bloodshed to other people for the sake of their religion and money. And, it is also worth noting that Muslim empires was so rich before because most of the wealth come from other invaved countries, and so, that's why at the near end of Turkish caliphate, they are poor because their territories slowly declared their own independence. But, doesn't that create a bad view about "jihad?" . Well, I don't know.

So does that true that  indeed, religions are the problems that haunted humanity for so long then? Well. Not exactly, but not truly undeniable either.

Jews defended themselves that throughout the Hebrew Bible , it can be found that there are many passages that God asks the Jews to be kind to non-Jews, as well as passages that deemed contradictory to this idea. This "kind-to-strangers" passage are used extensively by the Jew scholar Philo of Alexandria to formulate the philosophy of Logos during the Roman era. There are enough love message in Christian Bible regarding love for humanity. "Love your enemies" is an often-quoted Jesus saying that reflected this,as well as his sacrifice for the sake of human salvation, regardless whether they are believers or not. Our Muslim histories are well filled with how kind the Prophet Muhammad is, helping Jews, feeding them etc.

But what I believe, that though at some points of history, religions ( or what the apologists would say, the believers of the religions, not religions per se) bring calamity and trouble, they have also created such a positive impact to humanity. In Asoka's time, it was not military-based war which becomes the empire's method of expansion, it's the faith of Buddhism that is spread by the empire missionaries . Yahweh Judaism has become such a tool of unity and has given the spirit to the Semite people in the era where pagan Jews who worshipped Baal are oppressed  significantly. Pauline Christianity has created such a fraternity that resist the cruel pagan Romes who persecuted them, and so much  impact Christianity has done to the world. Islam also, has contributed significantly to the world, which I need not mentioning here as well.

Besides, Communists, capitalists knows no religion, but they did  almost equally disastrous impact on mankind as well, ayte?

I'm open to criticism. Thank you.

Kecewa

Pissed off. Pissed off gila-gila. A bloody 'apology' and all these nothing-happened-pretense sicken me.

Dari-Nya Kita Datang, Pada-Nya Kita Pulang.

Rakan batch saya di Sekolah Menengah Agama Izzuddin Shah dulu, baru kelmarin kembali ke rahmatullah disebabkan kemalangan yang berlaku sewaktu mereka dalam perjalanan pulang beraya daripada Kuala Kubu Bharu pulang ke Ipoh.

Arwah mengantuk semasa memandu dan termasuk ke laluan bertentangan dan dirempuh treler. Arwah dan teman istimewanya meninggal di kawasan kemalangan itu  juga .

Semua yang hidup pasti akan menemui ajalnya. Itulah janji Tuhan. Semoga Allah mencucuri roh mereka berdua dan menempatkan mereka selayaknya. Saya tidaklah begitu rapat dengan allahyarham, tetapi melihatkan seorang rakan sebaya, yang masa hadapannya kelihatan begitu cerah ,dan kini jadi begini,  membuatkan saya sedikit sayu dan teringat betapa kerdilnya kita di pandangan Dia.

For there is a beginning, and there is an end.

Fulus-Mania?

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich man's world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich man's world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
It's a rich man's world

( in materialistically desperate mood or desperately materialistic mood. If you wonder, it's Abba.)

Medical Checkup: What Should I Do?

The problem is, I used to be 63.4 kg last 3 weeks. Now, I 69.7 kg. Bloody hell. What, 2 weeks a hell of a workout? Argghhh.

Who Says Life Is Fair?

Wankhai, wankhai, each of us mortals have our own personal legend.
Get real, wankhai, get real.
Please wankhai, just...
Get Real.

Target

Setiap pendakwah/daie perlu tahu siapa mad'u(orang yang didakwahkan) mereka dan bagaimana mereka-mereka ini mahu didekati. Wujud sahaja golongan yang mengajak mereka solat pun sudah dikira biadab kerana tidak mahu 'menghormati' pilihan mereka untuk tidak mengamalkan agama. Ada pula yang tidak mahu berdamping dengan orang yang kelihatan alim untuk menjaga 'imej ' mereka dengan rakan2 lain. Macam2 dunia ini. Untuk itu, daie harus kreatif agar usaha2 mereka tidaklah menjauhkan jarak antara mereka hanya kerana 'ajakan untuk solat'-meski ianya baik. Ada sesetengah pendakwah pula bercita-cita 'tinggi'-mahu berdakwah pada non-muslim. Alhamdulillah, tapi waspada,maruah Islam di tangan anda. Jangan sampai anda tersipu-sipu malu kerana tidak mengenal mereka-samada mereka itu agnostics, atheists, free thinker,spiritualists, realists, absurdists etc.Sekadar tahu menghentam Bible apa gunanya, kalau kita terketar mempertahankan Quran, dan mereka juga don't care a damn about Bible and their religion. Jadi, buat homework. Kenali mad'u anda. Huhu.

Metrosexual?

To a certain extent, I am bloody sure that I am not a metrosexual . When I went shopping raya with a friend last time, I simply couldn't fathom on why and how "skinny jeans is the in thing now for jeans", "this year neon is the colour", "there's a new gucci leather bag for laptop", "dolce and gabbana has new collections of scarfs", "vee neck is popular these days" seem so important. Why Giordano's plain shirt suddenly are more pricey than some typical Forest shirt? It's PLAIN ! Huhu, I really am clueless about this fashion thingy. See,there's little point of ironing every clothes that is used for outing. Also,what's with "just mild exercise or some yoga so that u will be fit,lean without being muscular" and "just eat a bit". Duh. Beauty is indeed pain.

Menziarahi Kuburan

Saya difahamkan bahawa tidak ada nas khusus mengenai ziarah kubur di pagi raya. Memang tidak wujud rasanya. Setakat saya tahulah, Rasulullah menziarahi kuburan Baqi' selalunya pada waktu hampir subuh(barulah ingat mati seperti yang dianjurkan Islam,membolehkan kita bermuhasabah dengan amalan kita), dan juga selalu menziarahi kuburan di bulan Ramadan. Tapi di sini saya tidaklah menyalahkan amalan kita orang Melayu ini. Lantaklah nak pergi bila-bila pun, sebab hadis lain yang menganjurkan kita menziarahi kubur bersifat umum. Cuma ada satu perkara menarik saya jumpa semasa saya dan keluarga ke kubur tok pagi tadi. Di satu kubur ini, satu famili sedang membaca yasiin untuk disedekahkan pahalanya untuk si mati, InshaAllah. Tenang melihat saudara seIslam melakukan amal kebaikan. Tetapi saya ternampak pula sesuatu. Seorang ahli keluarga famili ini, rasanya darjah 6 atau tingkatan 1 barangkali, saya ingatkan sedang membaca yasin seperti ahli keluarganya yang lain, rupa-rupanya sedang bermain PSP? Dan hati kecil saya semacam sedikit..."terkilan?". Wallahualam. Memanglah main PSP tak haram,tapi,entahlah, saya rasa semacam sikit. Huhu. Balik dari kubur pun dengan rasa pelik.

Aidilfitri

Salam lebaran,kalian. Tuhan itu Maha Mengetahui. Dengan kehendak-Nya,akan disampaikan kita lagi pada Ramadan dan Syawal yang seterusnya. Mungkin saja ini kali terakhir saya menyambut Ramadan kerana saya tidak tahu takdir ketentuan Ilahi, justeru saya memohon maaf kepada kalian buat segalanya dan salah silap kalian pada saya juga saya maafkan. Tuhan tahu betapa banyaknya salah saya pada-Nya, dan saya tak mampu menanggung dosa pada manusia yang lain juga. Jadi, ampunkan salah silap saya. Sila jaga diri kalian. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

The Remaining Days

Won't be around until Raya, inshaAllah. It's just few days more before ramadan ends,and such great rewards are given by the Lord for those who worship Him with absolute obedience at this time. Wish me the best. Kalian juga. Moga ketemu malam Qadar. Salam.

Dead or Alive.

Claudio: Death is a fearful thing. Isabella: But shamed life a hateful. [ Measure for Measure; William Shakespeare]

The Symphony of Death.

Death is inevitable. Death is a must. I had this idea since I was a kid. Seeing how my great-grandfather died and such rituals performed,and last two years' grandma's death, I have this little wish: I want to lead the prayer for my dad, mum or my siblings when their times comes. I want to be the imam for solat jenazah, to be the one who gives speeches to the penziarah (halal makan minum, tuntut hutang),and I want to be the one who recite the talkin to the penziarah in the kubur. But then I realize, my dad perhaps who will perform jenazah prayer to me, in front of my decaying body,my soul waiting to meet my Creator. My uncle perhaps be the one who give the farewell speech. It's all a likely possibility. Because I know, death is a mystery.

The End of Melancholy.

Those I met in KMS were such good people.

Redza who always brought up interesting questions about love and spirituality,and more love and its nature.
Syazwan who happens to be most "awet muda " guy I ever see. Gee, masa hantar kamu di KLIA semalam, you look like 16! Damn! Hehe.
Khairul who happens to be really opinionated on lots of matters, and to him, I can speak many, many things.
Other guys who can be so cool, sometimes a jerk, yet still a good friend.

Saya tak menyesal berkenalan dengan kalian. Dan saya harap kalian juga begitu. We may not be best friends, but with you guys I did spent a lot of my time in KMS with. Forgive me for everything.

Huhu.

I won't talk about you guys anymore, perhaps. Rest assured that I'll browse your blog updates still. Goodbye. Salam GMT+8. Huhu.

The End of Melancholy.

Those I met in KMS were such good people.

Redza who always brought up interesting questions about love and spirituality,and more love and its nature.
Syazwan who happens to be most "awet muda " guy I ever see. Gee, masa hantar kamu di KLIA semalam, you look like 16! Damn! Hehe.
Khairul who happens to be really opinionated on lots of matters, and to him, I can speak many, many things.
Other guys who can be so cool, sometimes a jerk, yet still a good friend.

Saya tak menyesal berkenalan dengan kalian. Dan saya harap kalian juga begitu. We may not be best friends, but with you guys I did spent a lot of my time in KMS with. Forgive me for everything.

Huhu.

I won't talk about you guys anymore, perhaps. Rest assured that I'll browse your blog updates still. Goodbye. Salam GMT+8. Huhu.

So Long,Farewell, Auf Wiedersehen,Goodnight..

Goodbye beloved friends. May the sun there shines as radiant as here and the blessings are just as holy, for God is everywhere to guide and to protect. I'll miss you all. Bye.

Purposes of Having Purposes & Goodbye India IB Medics

A very good friend of mine asked me on what is my Purpose of Life. I can answer using standard naqib-themed conversation of mine," servant of God", materialistic one,"achieve what we dream for", spiritualist one,'to know thyself' etc but no I don't. Instead, i became a freak. I was honest and told him my purpose of life is to live as Instrument of Evil. My, was he confused. By the way, good luck IBs~sila jaga diri anda. Takdir menentukan kita akan ketemu lagi.

That One.

That special someone.

I could go to gym everyday for that.
I could invest in trendy clothes.
I'll diet like some anorexic, bulimic guy.
I'll make as much money as I can.
I'll climb the social ladder like crazy.
I'll walk that path of grey.
I could throw off that skin.
 For that special someone.

But I know.
Reality is tragic.
There's no guarantee in everything.

And....

Why do we do these for others, but not yourself?

Kehadiran Adik Baru ( Yet Again)

Assalamualaikum dan selamat datang ke dalam famili ini, Wan Kamarul Nizam bin Wan Khalid yang lahir semalam di Hospital Selayang. Jadi, takhta adik bongsu kini dipegang oleh kamu, tidak lagi Wan Shahidatul Sabrina binti Wan Khalid. Auntie Sue mahu memanggil kamu Boboy, akan aku perangi habis-habisan. Boboy terlalu euw. Kamu mahu panggil aku along ataupun akhi? Hehehe.

 

Wan Shahidatul Sabrina, 2 months old, kini kamu officially jadi kakak~ tamat sudah riwayat bongsu kamu selama 2 bulan. Muahahaha. Dan mentang-mentang kamu sudah besar, jangan dibuli pula si adik kamu tu. Beza dua bulan ja Erin oi...

Stubborn Little Baby

Kehadapan adik yang masih tak mahu-mahu keluar daripada dunia kandungan itu, silakanlah keluar sekarang. Awat ketega' sangat ni? Baka Jerteh Terengganu punya pasai ka? I have lost my sense of privacy by this excessive amount of relatives at home, and gets tired doing errands. With Erin crying ,spoiled brats of little cousins that make me insane, and inquisitive aunts("mu xdok gewe lg ke along?", gee, pop out already. "Can't wait" seeing you. Duh. Let's get it done and over with . Huhu.

Perang.

Membeli belah di mana-mana pasar raya besar ialah seumpama berperang. Cabaran pertama ialah berebut parkir kereta. Kemudian, apabila sudah menembus masuk barisan musuh (makcik2 dgn suami yang kelihatan bosan dan anak2 kecil yang menjengkelkan) dengan troli kita, kita juga harus bertarung tangan untuk mendapatkan ayam paling baik dengan orang lain, berebut mendapatkan sotong promosi RM5 sekilo, menjeling mata dengan muka paling benci dgn mereka yang memotong barisan kaunter bayaran. Dan kemudian, bersabar. Peperangan memerlukan kesabaran. Kemenangan diraih apabila kita berjaya melayangkan kad ahli kita dan menghulur wang dan bergegas pulang ke rumah menyambut dengan jamuan. Urgh.( Sedang beratur lagi)

Hari Yang Sibuk di Rumah, Hospital dan Jalan Raya.

Busy days ahead.
12.30 tengah hari menghantar kak izan ( read: izey [ kelantanese]) dan shaheera ke hospital. Huhu. Bayi auntie amat degil, xmahu keluar-keluar. Sudah 18 jam amniotic fluid keluar anyway. Sudah disuntik antibiotik dah ni.
Selepas itu mahu menghantar Gen 2 dan Naza Citra untuk ditukar minyak hitam. Dah sampai masanya.
Kemudian kena pergi membeli beras. Tetiba ada sudden rush of relatives (bukan epidemic okay) coming to this rumah sempit of us and so we don't think beras mencukupi untuk berbuka puasa nanti. Kalau cukup pun, takkan tahan lagi sehari.
Kemudian kena bawa mak pergi NSK membeli barang-barang masakan. Aiya.
Dalam pukul 4 itu pulak kena melalui that bloody traffic in KL untuk mengambil kak ila di The Mall dengan anaknya. Ini paling leceh. Nak balik rumah nanti kompem jam teruk. Mengapalah tidak mahu menaiki teksi ....
Kalau sempat kena rushing pula mengambil Tok Ma ( mak betul abah) di Taman Greenwood Gombak. This place is where you can find the diaspora of Kelantanese who works here in Selangor and KL. Selayang also  has quite a significant number of Kelantanese.
Kalau tak sempat ni kena suruh Khairill yang ambilkan.
Mak-mak abah yang lain sudah menelefon anyway.Pak Amin dah Pak Izan dah ditelefon. Sanak saudara auntie di Terengganu (Jerteh anyway, not THAT Terengganu ) sudah bersiap sedia di sana.  Kalau dulu, masa mak bersalin, saya selesa sahaja berbicara dengan sanak saudara yang berziarah yang menggunakan loghat Utara Taiping dan loghat Perak, aiya, tapi untuk kali ini saya kena buat-buat faham dengan perbualan sanak saudara yang bercakap Kelantan. Ketika inilah, saya yang jarang-jarang senyum akan senyum sahaja apabila berbual kerana saya tidak faham apa yang mereka tanyakan.Tambah-tambah pakcik-pakcik yang saya tidak pernah jumpa seumur hidup ini pun.

Keluarga ini besar amat, terlalu banyak rantingnya.Got to go. Salam.

KMS Oh KMS

Adakah Kolej MARA Seremban makin lama makin horror?

Sila baca blog post ini:

http://virgin-virago.blogspot.com/2009/09/duduk-di-kolej-maken-menyedihkan-sikit.html

The Next One Dah Ke?

Dalam post saya Julai dahulu, Ahli Keluarga Baru, saya beritahu yang mak saya pergi hospital untuk bersalin kan?

Sekarang ini, the other mum punya turn rasanya. Tapi tak tahu lagilah.

Pagi tadi air ketuban pecah, 'katanya'. Ini anak sulung dia jadi dia tidak tahu. Kini dia kat rumah kami sekarang, makan-makan before my dad send her to hospital, to which me as the eldest brother kena ikut.

Pray for her. Kalau ada rezeki hari ini lah bersalin. Kalau tak, tunggu lagilah.

Salam.

Sila Tekan Brek .Jangan Panik.

Tarik nafas dalam-dalam, lepas.
Tarik nafas dalam-dalam, lepas.

Bertenang sambil menghayati ayat Quran yang mulia di bulan mulia ini. Antara sunnah paling afdhal juga, selain kahwin.

Salam ramadan.

Tuhan Segala "Tuhan".

Kamu berTuhankan harta melimpah ruahkah? Dia itu pemilik segala harta yang nyata dan tersembunyi. Kamu berTuhankan kecantikan diri dan umur yang panjangkah? Dia itu pencipta kecantikan dan padanya segala kecantikan. Kamu berTuhankan wanita muda, atau lelaki kacakkah? Dia itu pemberi jodoh, dan milikNya Ainul Mardhiah dan Yusuf a.s. Kamu berTuhankan dunia, dunia itu bukan milik Tuhan kah?(tazkirah buat diri yang dilanda mcm2 kebelakangan. Moga dipermudahkan. Ameen)

One Last Time

Wow. 09.09.09. That's fast. Well, see you guys there in Kuala Lumpur International Airport InshaAllah.
It may take some time before we meet again in the future. I will try not to miss this last opportunity sending you all.
p/s: It's raining heavily here. Owh so sleepy. If only it's not Friday today..

Melayu Oh Melayu.

Bilalah orang Melayu Malaysia, sebilangan besar rakyat Indonesia,Melayu Singapura, Melayu Brunei, Melayu Champa, Melayu Patani, Melayu Mindanao akan sedar," Kita ini serumpun, asal dari yang sama, budaya yang hampir sama, jadi kenapa nak gaduh-gaduh, kenapa macam tidak kenal-kenal?"Oh Tuhan. Melayu ini dulu peradabannya menganjur dari Champa ( Kemboja) , turun ke Myanmar dan Thailand, sebilangan menetap di Patani kini ( yang dahulunya jajahan Kelantan), masuk ke Semenanjung Tanah Melayu, turun ke Sumatera, bergerak ke Tanah Jawa, naik ke Borneo,  berselerak ke sekitarnya, dan naik ke Mindanao. Oh besarnya peradaban ini. Besarnya gagasan keluarga nenek moyang kita. Mahu dikecil mengapa?

Lupakah kita dengan empayar perkasa, Empayar Srivijaya , Empayar Majapahit itu? Asal usul datuk nenek moyang kita? Itu kitalah. Dan janganlah lupa asal usul istilah "Melayu" ini dari Sungai Melayu di Sungai Sumatera itu . Dan kita-kita ini mungkin datang berhijrah daripada Yunnan, China, migrasi besar-besaran secara berperingkat , di mana dari Yunnan itu kita datang ke bahagian Asia ini. Sejarawan R.H Geldern, J.H.C Kern, J.R Foster, J.R Logen, dan Slametmuljana bersetuju dengan pandangan ini, meski ada pandangan lain yang orang Nusantara memang penduduk asal meski pandangan ini kurang popular.Dan banyak sekali perkaitan yang boleh dijumpai dalam susur galur keluarga keluarga-keluarga diraja negara kita ini dengan kerajaan Patani , Indonesia semuanya. Aduh.Dalam kitab Purana itu pun, sebuah kitab Hindu purba, 'Malaya dvipa' itu tidak merujuk langsung pada Semenanjung kita ini, ia mungkin sekali merujuk kepada Pulau Sumatera. Mahu marahkah kita Melayu Malaysia? Sudah pastilah tidak, bukan?

Bangsa Melayu ini bangsa inovasi. Datang agama Hindu dan Buddha pada kita, nah, kita bina peradaban agung. Pusat pengajian agama Hindu kita dirikan dengan megahnya di Kedah Tua dan Majapahit dan Srivijaya. Datang agama Islam, nah, kita bina empayar-empayar agung di Tanah Melayu ini . Kerajaan Islam Champa dan Aceh dan Jawa yang bernaung di bawah Kerajaan Othmaniah, dan tak perlu diberitahu lagi, Kerajaan Islam Melaka yang bersekutu (bukan bernaung) di bawah kekhalifahan.

Aduhai, mengapa nasionalisme sempit ini menghancur segala. Melupakan sejarah, kita berebut warisan. Batik, wau, lagu-lagu tradisi,makanan,wayang kulit, kuda kepang, semua konon asal sendiri. Semua mengaku "saya yang punya." Malaysia yang bangang, dan Indonesia yang bodoh. Mahu digelar begitukah? Kenyataan Menteri Malaysia yang semberono mengaku bahawa sesetengah warisan memang asal dari semenanjung tanpa merujuk sejarah, dan Menteri-Menteri Indonesia dan media Indonesia yang tidak putus-putus mengecam Malaysia dek emosi dan kononnya, mereka punya semangat nasionalisme yang kental. Sedangkan mereka lupa bahawa kita juga berkongsi warisan yang sama, dan kita juga berhak mengatakan ianya milik kami JUGA. Lalu slogan Ganyang Malaysia bergema di negara pulau tersebut, dan prejudis menebal di Malaysia.

Aduh-aduh. Mana kononnya pembela-pembela Melayu ini ? Berkobar menjerit melaung slogan ketuanan Melayu sedangkan sejarah Melayu diperlekehkan, warisan Melayu dipinggirkan dan direbut secara bodohnya. Sejarah Melayu Raya disimpan di ruang perpustakaan paling dalam. Inilah yang jadinya apabila politik Melayu disebut-sebut bagai nak rak, tetapi aset kebudayaan Melayu dan Islam dihinjak-hinjak dan diseret ke tepi.

Bilakah Melayu Indonesia dan Malaysia boleh faham bahawa ia bukan "saya punya", ini "kita semua punya". Hak cipta apanya kalau sejarahnya, kita dulu ini 1Melayu. Aduhai, aduhai.Jangan bilang kita Melayu kalau tidak mahu memahami sejarah peradaban bangsa ini, dan jangan bilang kita ini Islam sekiranya kita tidak mempedulikan Palestina.

Deep Thinking

I imagine.Me with so many kids. Really noisy house. Really devastating life. It all seem so terrible. I realized that I'm not a family man. I don't see myself having kids, and I slowly don't see the need to have a family. I really do. And this naughty, evil mind of mine slowly gives this idea of living far away from noisy parents and stupid siblings when I have my job later, and keep the relationship to a bare minimum. Call me evil, but in this glorious nite of Ramadan, I had to say, to me, this is a brilliant idea. And still, I'm not against any sunnah or anything, I'm just being me: individualistic.

Things That Are Meant To Be Told About

A very good guy pal of mine (whom I love very much,mind you) asked me recently,"why are u being so open with ur dad's polygamy,wan? You seem to tell everybody about your two mums". Hoho,well,the reason is: I want to. I think good thing like peaceful 'madus' need to be told to other people as well, rather than all these negative movies, dramas on how TERRIBLE polygamy is. Obviously my mums have problems sometimes, but I don't think THAT needed to be highlighted more than the good ones. I am not ashamed about my family and myself,maybe that's also why. There's always good n bad on everything, anyway. Huhu. GTG. Tarawih nk start. Salam

Lega

Pulang dari bangunan MARA HQ dengan pelbagai rasa di jiwa. Gembira, sedih,lega,terharu, tertanya-tanya, khuatir;semuanya bercampur-baur dalam diri ini. Urm...Ah, lupakan baku buat seketika. [Happy gler! Banyak perkara dah diperjelaskan kat HQ tadi. Huhu. And sudah dibgtau kompem fly ke UoA NZ, walau xsmpai offr lttr . Alhamdulillah.] Salam.